2018- Year In Review

I hope that everyone has had a fantastic holiday season. As I sit here and reflect on this year as it is quickly coming to a close. This year was filled with highs and lows. I learned a lot, and I will enter this year with a renewed sense of purpose, excitement, and drive. I will break this past year down month by month.

January– I turned a year older, and I was still interning at a really great company where I felt that I had a lot of potential of turning this into an employment opportunity, and I really was enjoying my time there.

February– I was still interning at a really great company, my aunt had double knee replacement surgery, so I offered to stay with her while she recovered and help her with her physical therapy, along with other duties. I honestly had a delightful time. I learned that I really love and enjoy helping and caring for others

March– After interning at a really great company, for about 5 months, they delivered a “gut punch” that made me realize that unfortunately good things aren’t always meant to last.

I had a meeting with my job coach, my ETP supervisor (I will write about ETP later), my supervisor at the internship, and the person I was connected with from the HR dept. were in this meeting, I was informed that the possibility of my internship there possibly turning into a paid position was no longer in the cards. The company had given me the option to either end my internship that day or finish out the month. I decided that I would finish out the month because this meeting was a little past the halfway point through the month. Even though doing so was so difficult.

I was still assisting my aunt with her recovery at the time of this meeting, but I tried not to let this affect my care and attention to aiding my aunt in her recovery from her replacement surgery. My ETP supervisor had contacted my mother just to let her know what had happened and when I returned to my aunt’s house, my mom arrived a few short minutes later just as it hit me like a ton of bricks.

April– My internship ended, and I took a moment to breathe, pick myself up, then I started looking for a new job.

May– My boyfriend and I celebrated his birthday. I was still looking for a job. My family and I went to Charleston, SC to watch my younger sister graduate from college. I am so proud of her.

July– I went and watched the fireworks on the fourth of July. I was still looking for a job. My family, dad’s siblings and their families and I went on our annual camping trip for a three day weekend.

August– We celebrated my father’s birthday.

October– Had a good Halloween.

November– Celebrated my mother’s birthday. Had a wonderful Thanksgiving… too much good food.

December– Still looking for a job, and had a wonderful ChristmasO

Notes– One thing I learned is that looking for a job has been extremely frustrating and the waiting and not knowing has been the worst part of the job searching experience. I have reached the point where I want to rip my hair out due to the frustration (not that I actually want to rip my hair out).

Here’s too a better 2019…

My Goals For The New Year

Now is that time of year where you start to think about how you want to improve yourself in the coming new year… honestly I dread this because I know that I failed on my goals for this year and I wind up kicking myself in the butt EVERY single time.

But as I sit here, I am just honestly disappointed in myself at this past year. I am not here today to put my year in review… that will be next week’s topic

Today I am looking to the future (trying) and setting myself up for success for the coming New Year. So let’s make those goals, and let’s get an early start I will also add in my thoughts on these goals as we roll along.

Lose 45 lbs– This is easier said than done because I love food and sometimes I really cannot control when I am hungry, but I honestly want to work on this.

Get a job– I have been looking for months, and I don’t know why but I feel like people are looking at my disability and not at me as a person who has a lot that she can bring to the team if honestly given a chance to prove myself.

Learn to know– What I mean by this is sometimes my Irish-German temper gets the best of me and sometimes I need to remind myself when it is okay to say to myself that this disagreement is not worth it.

Be a better blogger– I have always wanted to blog, but I have a tendency to become trapped in my thoughts worried about what other people think about what I post then I woke up and realized that this is my blog and I will post what I want.

Get my permit/driver’s license– I want to drive, and my current permit expires on my 29th birthday which is on January 30, so I need to take the time to polish up on my driving know how.

Improve myself– I need to eat better, but I will have to blame my grandfather for inheriting his sweet tooth, I love sweets.

And last but not least…

Have a successful, amazing, and memorable 2019.– I hope that overall regardless of what happens next year I hope to have a year full of good times, laughter, experiences, and just enjoy the last year of my twenties.

Thank you for reading,

Irish Queen

Happy Anniversary: An Open Letter To My Love

As I sit here I am still in awe and disbelief that today we celebrate our 5 year anniversary, it has honestly been awe-inspiring, & I have never looked back once since we started on this beautifully crazy adventure together and I hope that we can continue to enjoy this wild ride together for much longer. Over these past 5 years you have become much more than just my rock, or my partner in crime, or my better half, you are such a blessing to every life you touch.

Sitting here thinking & reflecting on our time together I honestly cannot recall if I have ever smiled as much as I have or laughed louder than I have with you. I love your uncanny sense of timing. Whether it is with a joke when I am in need of a laugh (sometimes you just keep it going until I am gasping for air), a perfect bear hug when my world was falling apart, asking me if I needed anything, or just simply saying something sweet making me love you more than I thought I ever could. When I get hard on myself, you are always quick to remind me about all the positive things that you see in me.

I love it when we just sit there in the silence not really saying much of anything, just enjoying each others company. I love that you call me just wanting to hear my voice and/or text me every day when you get out of work letting me know that you are thinking of me, especially after a long day at work, and how we talk about our days and what happened during the day. I remember how we met and our story is a pretty simple thing.

Well, we met when you were my tour guide for CEP (College Experience Program- a program that gives those with disabilities the opportunity to attend college). Then we went our separate ways, but I never stopped thinking about you and the following year our paths crossed once again when I moved into my dorm. Then the during next two years we got to be really good friends. Then you helped me move into my apartment and then last year you helped me with the house and then helped me move in.

What I really love about you is how knowledgeable you are when it comes to movies, video games, and music because seeing the twinkle in your eye when I ask you to unload your vast knowledge about something related to one of those topics I see how excited you become. I love that you come to ask me about tech products and other things make me feel empowered and excited. 

The most fun I have is when I turn on some music, and we just start singing or dancing. Not really worried about anything. What really took me by surprise recently is that I never knew about your love of history and learning about history.

With every passing year that we are together the more, I feel blessed to call you mine. I cannot stop thinking about all the fun we have together. I look forward to many more years of laughter and good times with you. I love you.

Irish Queen